Transportation...trains vs car...

Been on a 2 days training for Dangerous Goods onboard vessels...quite free...the training is relatively interesting..despite the fact that it is the 3rd time that I am learning all the same things...hahaha...

Anyway, just wana comment on some things regarding the public transport in our "home". Singapore boast of having a great public transportation system that allows us to travel from one end of Singapore to another in a relatively easy manner and helps us to "save" money from driving.

However, does anyone really think that way? Public transportation has been raising its fee almost every year and yet, their service has not exactly improved like they proclaimed...trains arrived in a longer time period now, and having some without seats (despite the fact that we are supposed to be older folk- friendly now... with the aging population...(maybe they think more ppl on wheelchair? so need bigger space?) Then trains are driven in a jerky manners by train master who do not care if there are eldery onboard. Plus, the trains stop in the middle of the tunnel whenever they faced problems from the earlier trains....and that caused more delays...admittedly that we have to consider the safety of everyone and of coz we shldnt complain for the sake of our safety, but couldnt SMRT do something abt the drivers who do not meet the schedule on time? It is really sickening to get out of your house earlier, only to meet a delay and become later than you normally arrived for work...somehow, it makes mi feel that braving the hordes of cars on the CTE is better than the hordes of ppl on the MRT and the delays met almost every week....

Well, buy a car you say...sure, I can buy a car and drive to and fro...paying ERP at every chance that I've got...ooooo....I LOVE to pay ERP dun ya? Fact is, life is Singapore has become so expensive that the only way that U can live here is to be rich...and to be rich, u have to be rich first? Soo, how? Suffer in silence... while you pay more taxes to benefits the "new citizens" of Singapore...What will become of us... I do not know...

A new beginning...

I decided to delete all my posts in this blog, and start anew...=) Wasnt hard to delete all 100 over posts...was surprised that I just hit the delete button without a 2nd thought..hmmm

Well, been a long time since I last wrote...now feeling a little out of place...there are many things to say and to write, and so little clue as to how I should put it into words...=X

I was just looking through the wish list that I have set up in this blog and I read this: "A New Business", and I was surprised. I have been thinking about this for quite some time now, but I don't remember thinking about this just for sooo long!? I have been procastinating and delaying with all kind of excuses, all kind of reasons, from inexperience to lack of time, funds, products....anything and everything has become my reasons...

I need to get my lazy bones out of the way, so that I can finally have the courage to do it. I can feel the burden from my heart...knowing that this is something that I should do and yet, not have the guts to do it. Nor do I feel that I am willing to spend all the time that I have doing something more meaningful then FB. This is what sickens me more than anything. I am disappointed in myself, and disgusted at my lack of motivation, despite all the push factors surrounding me. I fear that I will fail, I fear that I do not have what it takes. These becomes my reasons to not do it.

However, God is always good. I have been asking Him for courage, for strength, and He gave me these words: "Lauch out into the deep and cast your nets down for a catch" from Luke 5:4. It has always been Luke for me...no matter what I pray for, it is always Luke who offers the answer. God has given me so many affirmations...from daily devotions to rhema words like this, and yet, I am still afraid. I am not sure why it is that I am holding back...but I am...and I just do not understand it. =(

In the end, I decided to help myself by enrolling into a course from Ngee Ann called Entreprenuership and Business Development in order to clear my doubts about the knowledge and how I should start a business. I have already attended the first lesson and I must say that I really enjoyed the course. I hope that this course will really help me to finally push on to start that business that I always wanted to start.

I need to have an alternative income, a way to earn my own keep. Things at work ain looking good, and my health is also suffering from all the tiredness and "tortures" that comes from working on shifts. I need to have something that I can build upon so that I can become independent finacially. That way, I wouldn't have to worry about the job anymore...I can leave anytime then.

Well, before I can think about leaving, I need to set up my own website, selling things, marketing things...and that is easier said than done. I have no idea what to do and it is really difficult for me to get it going. Books can be tough to understand, and I struggled with them...it is really tough going just doing it alone. However, partners that I so-called have are all not interested enough. Makes me really frustrated, but nothing I can do. I can only struggle on myself. But I believe in reaping what I sow. I will definitely be able to figure out all of these if I would just trust God and myself. =)

I think I should start a new post to talk about something else...this topic is kinda...erm....haha...